Hal "Doc" Reading

My uncle passed away at home last night, surrounded by family, love. He was an amazing man with a kind heart and forgiving spirit. After 20+ years of an unfairly contracted disease, his life was sadly taken from those who love him so dearly. He contracted E. coli in December which sent him spiraling into a battle for everything he worked so hard to build. He had HCV(Hepatitis C. Virus) and a cancerous tumor on his liver. The last stab at the cancer prolonged his life just long enough for us to say goodbye. Chemo, kidney dialisys, strict diet, he was so strong, he left us the man he has always been. I feel most for my 14 year old cousin Halle, Doc's daughter. His last words were  to her, after she had said (I am not quoting but close to), "Good morning Dad. I love you." He managed to whisper, "I love you too." Later this night, he passed peacefully in his home.

I will always remember Uncle Doc as a tall, strong man. His heart bigger than his feet. He was fun loving and family oriented. Always the hand you needed when you were stuck in a rut. He helped you along without you even knowing sometimes. He has changed my life in ways I hope he is able to see from the beautiful place I know he is. I hope he see's how important he was to all who met him, as an uncle, brother, father, husband, friend, and even buisness man. I love you Doc, you are so much to this entire family.

Tears

All in all I feel it's done. You never really were the one. You hooked me like a piece of meat and drug me through the dirt, spinning like tires stuck in the mud. Round and round no fun or love, I feel you are the one I want but for you I am not. Trick me up and trick me down, I try to leave- you beg from the ground. And here I am still letting you tear me to pieces, you don't even notice I'm crumbling before your eyes. Broken heart, lost in lies and all you think about is you, never what I need you to. I'm breaking down, spinning round and round- like tires in the mud. You brought me down and left me to drown before your eyes- broken heart, lost in lies..

It's Been Awhile..

Wow, so much has happened since I was last able to post here. Samantha had her first birthday, first steps, first words. Life flies by so fast, it's like she never even was a newborn. I am growing and changing as a person, a mother, every day. I'm half way through cosmetology school now as well. It's 40hrs/week and I work as well so busy busy busy. Sammi is in MT with her Daddy. He moved there for work and now we have to wait until I graduate in Feb. for me to come too. Sammi will be back with me hopefully in about a month.... I'll get back to this later-